Frustration.

Let me see, been quite a very long time since I typed something here. However, as a friend once said don't think any 1 is reading either. Things are not really going smoothly in my life; 1st, I got sick, ppl say when someone is sick they will sleep a lot, but to me ? inversely, I can't quite sleep every night. Till today, tho, already almost fully recovered but still I can't sleep well. Any solutions ppl ?? and I don't have a good appetite anymore, eat very little, don't feel like eating, even vomiting sometimes. Had a really hard time. :(

2nd, Uni is actually very boring now, to me. At least last sem, I was still with some friends everyday. Now I'm taking everything ALONE. I think ppl reading this can already feel the dullness I'm going through everyday. Still have to think, how to sell those old text books and how to get new 2nd hand books. Lastly, Idk why, but there is an unknown fear in me afraid that I will fail marketing and law this sem. Seems hard.

Moreover, my holidays wasn't really that satisfying. I had to keep coming back to KL to be the brother's driver - fetching him to and back from school, just because I'm the brother the mother said. wth. Few weeks back, cos I have to fetch the kid I missed an opportunity to meet her. Think I'm gonna stop here, ntg is on my mind anymore. anyway, currently addicted to a song Mcc sent me, secondhand serenade-Like A Knife. The lyrics are really nice.

Lifeless.

Didn't blog 4 the pass few days cos, I went back to Ipoh. The line there somehow is okay, not very slow but the pc there is very slow, so didn't bother to do anything with it other else than watching shows.

Well, I watched both games of the Confederations Cup y'day, was quite schocking when US and South-Africa scored in the 1st half. Luckily at last both Brazil and Spain won. Luis Fabiano was great and Kaka'. Missed Alunson savior goal cos the brother have class tomorrow and so have to rush back to KL.

Staying in KL is super damn lifeless. swt. I have nothing to do, and have been sleeping the whole day, since after i drop my brother at 8am till, my brother finished tuition at taman megah, 6.40p.m. Anything to do here people ?

Well going out to pyramid with foundation friends 2mr hope it won't be as boring as now.

Ups and Downs

The day was quite dull to day. Restless. Didn't get to sleep. woke up at 7a.m. to fetch the brother, then spend the whole morning with themother until after lunch. Tomorrow will have to do the same thing again. Everyday waking up at 7 to fetch the brother is so tiring :(.

Only slept for an hour plus. Then woke up and got ready to go out to 1U with bel. Wasn't quite in the mood then due to the jams and lack of slumber. After fetching her, arrived at 1U around 8. Ate and shopped there 4 a while. Got a present 4 Ly and then she bought her stuff then headed home ard 9.45. Enjoyed the time with her, somewhat got cheered up :).

However, I didn't want to go home. so, went to starbucks to get a drink and chatted 4 a while with her in the car. Headed home and reached around 11.15. After that, heng called me and told me about the game 2night Spain vs United States, wanted to go out to watch at 2.30a.m but the mother don't let and nagged. So now, ended up here blogging. was not happy about that tho. However still there is a good news. :) I'm going back to Ipoh tomorrow night with my mother. So still not so bad. Things eventually work out ?

theMother :)

Well, call the mother last night and call her to come up, cause I felt that things were not going right for me. She said she will check her schedule. Then today she came. :) . was a bit upset last night after I spoke to her, however when I see her. I felt calmed :) . After she clearing up the dirty condo, and water her plants that my younger brother and me didn't do.I asked her to go to San Francisco Steak house for dinner. So, she brought me and my brother there. Had a delightful dinner and I like the desert, forgot the name again LOL. Heard some complains about the dad again. annoying! = =||.

Despite the scolding and nags, the mother is actually a wonderful person. and I love her. LOL
thanks mum !

Disappointments (cont.)

Told the eldest one about the car scratch. He did not want to care. Well maybe he is already too fed up about me giving him problems and that car is not his. Also told the mother, who was the only 1 i thought cared about my actual feelings y'day. she overreacted and like last time accused and say till like i purposely go scratch it. Now I don't even feel like looking at any1 of their faces.

Would have went to Setapak 4 the late weekdays to play and just hang out with Jon&friends there if Joe decided to go back to Ipoh this weekend, then I will not need to c those people's faces. But, eventually he's not and i don't have a car so just staying here till weekend. All the plans i planned, to go out with her 4 a movie, to eat at Delicious tonight, to go play futsal at Setapak with Joe and gang. All, i mean ALL also can't work out already. talk about holiday.

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Sorry yongyong,felicia, and hanyin. thought I can give u'll a ride back in the 1st place. but things are not working out and at the rate things are happening on me I don't think I will be allow to drive back. So, I think u'll will just have to depend on the bus driver, which maybe more reliable than me. SO SORRY.

Thankyou yongyong, here is my GRATITUDE on my blog. thanks 4 all the assignments help throughout the semester, and telling me how to put a chat box in my blog yet I haven't figure it out.
Don't think u will read this but thanks kerr 4 helping me in management the other time too.

Disappointments

Everything starts on Sunday afternoon. Woke up due to a phone call. After that call, saw a message on the phone. saying that she will not being following me back to KL. Was a little disappointed but yet got over it very fast.

At night when it was time to go back the farking old BMW got problem. Call the parent but they were NOT HELPFUL AT ALL. Start scolding me saying this and that wth. I was asking for help ppl! anyway quarrel with the 2nd brother and so be it. I don't even give a damn. Then took the Volvo to KL. Initially, it was perfect. but when I drove till near rawang the car starts to show negative signals and stuff. thus, call the dad again. but AS BEFORE not helping at ALL, and went off scolding again. Really feel like calling him to go fuck himself. So now what the car got prob and its my prob ? i spoiled it ? senseless ppl. Anyway, at last the eldest brother helped. Thank you! saw those cuts on the hand tho and however got some scolding from him also. At that time I felt the eldest brother is a thousand times better than the father who only knows how to scold scold scold and piss me off!

Then, had a drink with a friend and we chatted till morning 6.45a.m and had to sent the brother to school. So, went back to get him and was very tired already. Super sleepy when driving and so when reached the brother's school park there and have a nap in the car. After an hour, the dad called again, was a bit helpful this time as he called the machanic etc. and call me to tell them where is the car to solve the prob last night. After another hour, his PMS came again! called again and started scolding. really getting pissed ed. What a stupid things to volunteer to be the brother's driver! PPL I'M SUPPOSE TO ENJOY ME HOLIDAY NOT GETTING STRESSED UP HERE!

6.30p.m. went to fetch the brother. my careless driving scratched the ELDEST brother car. omg. So dead ed. Don't even dare to tell him yet....... How much scolding would I get? Actually intent to go 1U with her and get dinner for the younger brother. but now? can't go any where.can't do anything. the younger brother giving me the moodless stupid face say " I don't really feel like going " and there is no car for me to use. Nothing good quite happen these days. The only thing was Brazil won this morning.URGhHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Randomness

I don't really blog. but some1 said this can help pass time.
So, just do it 4 the sake of doing it.LMAO.
5.07a.m. and still awake, just came back not long from partially gaming and stuff.
The panda eyes are getting darker and darker. :( slept 4 only 2hrs+ yday then rush back to Ipoh after fetching her. haha. 1st time I drove back to Ipoh chatting with someone the whole journey :) enjoyable ?

I act open this blog last year.hoho. but din care to blog then, eventually lost the password.Just got it back 5min ago. Ignore the childish url plz, damn dumb that time to think of such url. well since it's already cre8ed might as well juz use it right? Lazy to get another email add. and I'm used to using this one. Why am I blogging actually? I don't know. Don't even know if anyone will read.hahaha